BRAG POST ALERT! This morning I reflect upon how sobriety can lead to dramatic change in reshaping your self-image.
In the past, I would alternate between narcissistic pride and hardcore self-deprecation, and there would be little room for anything in between, such as authenticity, feelings of self-worth, honest vulnerability, etc. Accepting a compliment, humbly stating a positive fact about myself, being satisfied with who I was, spontaneously offering my opinion or insights were very difficult, if not impossible goals to reach.
Today can feel how much my self-esteem has improved and how far away the feelings of self-hatred have gone. Of course, there are still plenty of times when I catch myself being too hard on myself. But hatred? Nope. never again.
Today I don’t feel like writing interminably about myself or the world, so instead, I’ll just share a few pictures of things I have seen, made or done these couple of weeks (outside of the 10 daily hours of PhD work, that is) which have either made my quarantine days brighter and/or made me feel proud 🙂
1. SCARY YOGA CHALLENGES !!!
I faced my fear of “death by crashing to my face” and made good progress on some asanas :
2. COOL THINGS ON WALKS:
3. BAKIIIIIIING
and last but not least…..
4. QUARANTINE CATS
That’s all folks !
I hope you find moments to enjoy and connect with yourself and loved ones if you are lucky enough to have them around.
I am grateful to be sober every single day of this quarantine.
Hang in there everyone !!
xxxx Anne
I love love these photos and your yoga poses are just amazeballs Anne. I’m well impressed. You look so toned and supple. I think if I attempted anything like that I’d do myself some serious damage. Hats off to you girl.
Xxx
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haha awwww thank you Claire ❤ but believe me, 1 of those pics has 100 ungraceful falling on the floor ones before it ^^ next time I'll post those 🙂 xxx Anne
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I nominated you for the Liebster award, btw. Check out my latest post… it’s a good way for others to discover your blog.
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whoaaaaaa I am flattered !! AMAZING I can’t wait to answer all the questions and link to yours 🙂 THANK YOU CLAIRE ❤ xxx Anne
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No probs. I’m looking forward to reading it xx
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Those are some serious-looking poses. Great job! You must feel very accomplished. And my sister had a cat named Fern. Love that.
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oooOoooo I’m so glad someone else named their cat Fern !!! 100% of the people around me think it’s a strange name but I love it 🙂 xxx Anne
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I know! Cool, right?
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Love your photos! I’ve been practicing headstands! Other poses look a bit tricky! you look amazing and very bendy! the cats are both gorgeous. More time with the pets is a def lockdown positive. Also love and relate to ‘oscillation between narcissistic pride and hardcore self loathing’ – brilliant phrase and so true and so nice to not do that anymore! Glad you’re doing ok xxx
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yes isn’t it so nice to find that in-between? also yaaaay for headstand 🙂 are you afraid without the wall? Most people don’t seem to be !
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Not now as I went over once and it didn’t hurt and I felt almost 8 years old again when gymnastics was my thing for a while! 😂😂😂
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hahahah yes, weirdly no amount of “safe” falling has cured my fear yet. I suspect it has much deeper psychological ramifications and symbolic weight, linked to my trouble in “letting go” of control and facing fear of the unknown. But every grain of sand counts 🙂 I will try to channel the joy of the 8 year old like you 🙂 xxx Anne
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Woah! Great yoga poses! And yoga pants!
Lol
Brag away!
xo
Wendy
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hahah aawwww thanks Wendy 🙂 those were a gift for my 29th birthday a few years ago 🙂 I’ve never worn them outside of home ^^
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Thanks for the smiles you’ve given me😊
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awwww thanks Dwight ! Your posts make me smile every time !!! xxx Anne
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Nice blog
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awwww thanks Saania 🙂 xxx Anne
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My pleasure, Anne 💕 followed you 💖
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some how just now seeing this ..great moves.. i surely need to get back to some exercise..motivation is really bad lately…just when i think the sun is coming out, something else happens…but staying positive! Hugs!
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awwww thank you Lovie 🙂 Yes…. it’s not always easy but often the first step is the hardest, then it just happens naturally 🙂 xxx Hopefully the sun will be out soon xxx Anne
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