Hi friends, I’ve been sober for over a year, and I’m fortunate that cravings very rarely hit me now. I barely think about drinking anymore, unless some new or triggering situation comes up, in which case I generally know what to do and have tools to navigate the whole thing. But yesterday, a new situationContinue reading “The Controversial Topic of Nonalcoholic Drinks”
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Sober stress management and self-parenting
Hi, my name is Anne, and I’m an Academic. Oh, and I also often suffer from a pathological fear of public speaking. Oh, and ARGHHHHHH … my PhD defense is in 4 days and I feel like I don’t know or understand anything anymore … SOS, SOS, MAYDAY, HEEEELP ! Don’t worry. Yes, I’m stressed, butContinue reading “Sober stress management and self-parenting”
Day 367: 1 Year Sober. HOLY F***K
Dear Past-Anne, It’s the end of summer, 2019. You just flew back from Paris back to your home on the East Coast of the U.S.A. Tomorrow you start your sobriety journey. I know you’ve been drinking almost every day these last few weeks, and that you’re really anxious at the idea of letting the boozeContinue reading “Day 367: 1 Year Sober. HOLY F***K”
Day 347: The Final Push.
My friend Claire’s post about Resilience https://wordpress.com/read/blogs/169561941/posts/487 got me thinking today. As I embark on the final push toward finishing my dissertation (4 weeks left to edit a 550 page manuscript… yikes!) and reaching the 1 year sobriety mark (though that feels more like a soft swoop than a push), I pause for a momentContinue reading “Day 347: The Final Push.”
Day 311: 10 Months Sober.
This picture was taken 5 years ago when I had just moved to the US. My heart was broken and I was severely depressed, longing to feel free. Willing to do anything to feel a bit of relief. Ironic, as I look pretty free on that swing. Today I have freed myself from so manyContinue reading “Day 311: 10 Months Sober.”
Day 293 : Feeling Better
Just a little update so I don’t disappear into oblivion. I feel like I have made it out of the tunnel of depression of these last 3 weeks. Like Claire at Ditching the Wine https://gettingsobernow.wordpress.com/, I halved my antidepressant medication two or three weeks ago, and am on my way to being med-free, probably sometimeContinue reading “Day 293 : Feeling Better”
Day 275: 9 months! No celebration after all…
I was planning on writing an uplifting and victorious 9 months post, but as usual, reality has a talent for kicking you in the ass whenever you have set expectations. Today on the East Coast of the U.S.A. the weather is stormy. Grey and stuffy, hot, humid, irritating. I am not a fan of complainingContinue reading “Day 275: 9 months! No celebration after all…”
Day 34. Licking your wounds.
Fall is here. They’re over, the sweet summer days. HAH! Who am I kidding, there were no sweet summer days in the relationship that brutally ended a week ago. Just gross, sweaty, overheated interminable waves of frustration and bursts of anger. Never enough time to cool down between fights. The same scenario, playing over andContinue reading “Day 34. Licking your wounds.”
Day 2: Here we go!
Yep, you heard, me: day 2, not 1. Why, you ask? Because, my friend, for me, day 1 was spent in bed, running to the bathroom to puke bile every hour, nursing the worst hangover I have had in a very very long time. Sigh. Let me rewind a little bit. Two weeks ago, IContinue reading “Day 2: Here we go!”
Two weeks to go – the grey zone.
Two weeks to go before I quit drinking. I mean, quit for a long time, quit for “real”. (As if the 11 last days weren’t real). Last night for the first time in 12 days, I drank alcohol. At a dinner party, with friends. There were no disasters, no embarrassing events, no regrets. A slightContinue reading “Two weeks to go – the grey zone.”